Thursday, August 4, 2011
My mom said we should decide if I'm having a party or not by the end of the summer, because if we are we need to start booking and getting prepared.
At first I was all gung-ho for this party, I thought it seemed like a great idea! I get to wear an amazing gown, I get to dance the night away with all my friends and family, eat my favorite foods, have everyone 'ooh' and 'awww' at my montage, make a playlist of music for my DJ. But then my parents informed me there's be a change of plans and a party is no longer in the future because we're going to Florida next April on a big trip with lots of relatives.
At first I was upset, I thought the party seemed like the easiest way to celebrate, you didn't have to think of anything besides a theme or what dress you were going to wear, but I realized (or rather my pointed it out to me) the reason why I was starting to love the idea of a party, when a few months ago I said I didn't care for a big bash, was because this way I didn't have to leave anyone out. I could invite everyone. Even those people that secretly I think are so fucking annoying, but I'm obliged to be friends with them. We all have those people, and I thought having a big party would be the easiest way to not have to deal with there "Why aren't I invited?! I thought we were close!", and even those awkward in-the-middle-friends. Where you're close, but you've only hung out a few times so you're unsure if you'd invite them to a small party or not.
But sometimes you have to step back, and just surround yourself with people you truly want to be with. I know you should always be kind, and I'm not saying that you have to rudely stop talking to them forever or something, but give them a hint. Let them down kindly.
Now I'm doing something smaller- but just as fun! - for my birthday. What yet, I do not know. But I'll probably go to the city with a couple friends and do something fun. I know once January rolls around I'm going to have to answer peoples nagging questions of, "Why was I not invited?". But sometime or another we all have to be the bearer of bad news.
Song stuck in my head today: "Every Teardrop is a Waterfall" by Coldplay
Keep on keepin' on,
Thursday, July 21, 2011
If you're annoying me, I'll let you know. I'm not gonna be able to tolerate you for to long, you're going to notice me distancing myself, so how could you say all these lovely things to me? How could you say it sucked that I was leaving you. Over, and over again. How could you lead me on like that, then drop me dry?
How could you.
Every day since we met I've thought of you, and now I swear, people will laugh in my face if I told them I knew you. If I told them I spent 3, outstanding days with you. Told them how you complimented me, how you wanted to know more about me. How upset you were when I left. Told them all about you- they would say I made it up.
But, you did teach me a lesson. Quite a few I guess. So, you didn't fuck it up that much- kinda.
Song stuck in my head today: "I Do" by Colbie Caillat
Keep on keepin' on,
Saturday, July 16, 2011
Thursday night, I lined up with a bunch of my family members and their friends to see Harry Potter and The Deathly Hallows Part 2. We dressed up, saw some crazy fans L.A.R.P.ing and just had SO much fun. It was amazing, just the whole atmosphere. I wanted to stay there forever!
Me and my cousin Emily, (I'm on the right!).
Going to a midnight movie is definitely exciting and fun, but I think you'll enjoy it more if you're a true fan of whatever you're going to see! Like even though I read and enjoy the Twilight series, I don't think I'd go and see Breaking Dawn at midnight because I'm not CRAZY about it. Hopefully something else will capture my heart like Harry Potter, but until then, and forever always- long lived The Boy Who Lives!
Song stuck in my head today:.....
Keep on keepin' on,
Tuesday, July 5, 2011
Monday, July 4, 2011
Friday, June 10, 2011
One of the best days this year!
Halloween 2010- 1st shaving cream fight with these amazing kids!
Halloween 2010- Dressing up as Reptar ♥
JV Soccer 2010!! Gonna miss you all next season :(
Seeing We The Kings live! :D
Turning 15- And spending it with my best friend ever!
Meeting Kuds in drama :) Oh, and wearing that lovely dress! Ha DRAMA 2010-2011♥
Monday, June 6, 2011
I'm 15 for a moment
I'm 22 for a moment
I have nothing to show for my life, people at the age of 15 have broken records, saved lives, won awards, created charities, started a movement! And while I'm content with my life, and I should be, it's hard not to wonder what I could be doing right, or wrong.
What if I die tomorrow.