My Life Is Slowly Slipping Away.

As you know*, I cry easily.

And I came close to wailing listening to "100 Years" today.

Finally, I found something to write about.

*(you should)

I'm 15 for a moment

Caught in between 10 and 20

And I'm just dreaming

Counting the ways to where you are

I'm 22 for a moment

She feels better than ever

And we're on fire

Making our way back from Mars

15 there's still time for you

Time to buy and time to lose

15, there's never a wish better than this

When you only got 100 years to live

I'm 33 for a moment

Still the man, but you see I'm a they

A kid on the way

A family on my mind

I'm 45 for a moment

The sea is high

And I'm heading into a crisis

Chasing the years of my life

15 there's still time for you

Time to buy, Time to lose yourself

Within a morning star

15 I'm all right with you

15 there's never a wish better than this

When you only got 100 years to live

Half time goes by

Suddenly you’re wise

Another blink of an eye

67 is gone

The sun is getting high

We're moving on...

I'm 99 for a moment

Dying for just another moment

And I'm just dreaming

Counting the ways to where you are

15 there's still time for you

22 I feel her too

33 you’re on your way

Every day's a new day...

15 there's still time for you

Time to buy and time to choose

Hey 15, there's never a wish better than this

When you only got 100 years to live

I have nothing to show for my life, people at the age of 15 have broken records, saved lives, won awards, created charities, started a movement! And while I'm content with my life, and I should be, it's hard not to wonder what I could be doing right, or wrong.

What if I die tomorrow.

I would've died without going to London, without having a baby, without taking a photo class, without being on a ferris wheel, without seeing my sisters grow up, without being a senior, with kissing you.

So why is it so damn hard for me to do what I want?! People always say "live as if today was your last!" "carpe diem!" "live life without regrets!", so when will that truly happen for me. I know it's my fault for not doing it. Whatever it may be.

So, here's my challenge for myself, if I better come back here in the beginning of Septemeber with stories to tell, things to say, and pictures to back it up with! I will do things I've always wanted to do, fill up my day with things better than sitting around watching Mob Wives and being on tumblr. I will chase my dreams and have a talk with a certain boy that is long overdue. I must, I have to.

And I will you tell you guys everything! No more randomly leaving the blog- unless I'm just having that much fun LIVING!

Song stuck in my head today: click above!!

Keep on keepin' on,

Madison

You greeted me on a frosty February first morning with death, and a dreadful ear infection. Well February I want to let you know that I will still love you, and I will still try to enjoy my last month of winter to the fullest. So please bear with me as a bear with you. Thanks for the two hour delay this morning to school, I needed it.

Song stuck in my head today: I don't know but my mum keeps complaining that Justin Bieber's "Baby" is stuck in hers!

Keep on keepin' on,

Madison

^bahah I'm sorry I still can't believe I actually typed mum.... :)

Back to Basics: A Flower List Update

Have you lost someone you were very close to?

66% said Yes, unfortunately
0% said A couple times...
33% said No, thankfully
and...
0% said I've never known anyone who's died.

I don't know about you guys, but I'm a big Pretty Little Liars fan. The books are amazing and the TV show isn't horrible! So, a couple episodes back the girls were planning their memorial for Alison. While Alison's older brother tries to take control of their memorial, they remind them how close they were with Alison and how they knew her on a completely different level. That made me start to think: do we every really know anyone? Or ourselves for that matter? I know when my cousin passed away, a lot of my family memebers learned more about him then then when he was alive. It'f unny to think that you can live your whole life thinking you had a clear picture of who someone was and then something happens to change all of that. Do we ever know ourselves, also? I used to think I know who I am, but now more then ever I'm questioning my actions. Would I normally do this? Is this me? Who am I?! Maybe it's just the age I'm at, everyone says that this stage in your life is about finding yourselves. Well, I ask my older and wiser readers: Do you ever find yourself?!

(:

Song stuck in my head today: "Jump" by the cast of Glee (Yay! New season real soon, which means new reviews! You excited?!)

Keep on keepin' on,

Madison

On Death Row.... Should We Say No?

If you've been watching the news lately you might've heard about a recent execution. Ronnie Lee Gardner was convicted of capital murder in 1985, and was sentenced to death. His victim was attorney Michael Burdell, who was fatally shot while Gardner failed in his try to escape a court trial. Before he killed Burdell, he was facing charges of murder in the shooting death of a bartender. When he was sentenced, Utah still had death by firing squad as an option, even though it was outlawed in 2004, Gardner chose to keep this execution method because he preferred it, not because of the controversy it stirred.

If you don't know how a firing squad execution works, here's a rundown. The person who is to be killed, is strapped in a chair, with a black bag over their head, and a bib-like target placed over their heart. A handful of certified policemen, who volunteered for this position, and remain anonymous stood 25 feet from the convicted, behind a wall cut with a gunport. To make it that the policemen can rest easy at night, certain guns are loaded with blanks, so no one will know who fired the fatal shot.

If you'd like to read more about Ronnie Lee Gardner's troubled life, and it's frightening ending, I'd suggest searching his name on today.msnbc.msn.com and click on the first link. I found it to be a great article, because it talked about so many things I didn't think about when dealing with executions. So I hope you check that out, but right now I have to get to my point because I know some of you reading this right now aren't going to want to read a whole essay just about Ronnie Lee Gardner.

When I heard about this, I was sort of shocked. I mean, I guess people get executed all the time but death by firing squad? Who should have to die like that?? I started talking about it with my neighbor, and they were a little taken back that I had any sympathy for this criminal. It got me really frustrated, and I couldn't make up my mind about it.

The death penalty is right. It's like the whole "an eye for an eye" philosophy. The convicted person made a choice, and with their choice comes consequences. You only get one life, and this is how they spent it, so they should accept whatever comes their way. They did something so horrible, it's not worth it for them to go on living.

The death penalty is wrong. It's like the whole "an eye for an eye makes the whole world blind" philosophy. Everyone deserves a second chance, "two wrongs don't make a right". Executing people only makes us murders also, so are we advocating homicides? People can change, many people in jail have been changed from the experience and have served communities countless times.

So what do you think? Let me know, I'm really curious.






Song stuck in my head today: "Hey Stephen" by Taylor Swift

Keep on keepin' on,

Madison