&Waking Up Is The Hardest Part

I don't get why we dream at night. It makes no sense. It's so surreal. Our heads hit the sack and then we're transported into this universe for the night.


Normally my dreams are very very weird. They make no sense what so ever, and half the time they have no one I know personally in them. Some examples: my infamous Zac Efron dream (I like sharing these with people). One night I dreamed that Zac Efron was a fish and he knitted me a sweater. Then he invited me to his HSM concert where he turned into a old black man. Another reoccurring one is one where I'm playing tag with pirates in my local Stop and Shop... Do you see?!


I don't get what - or even if - there's a purpose to dreams. Do they foreshadow events? Are they showing us what we should be doing? Are they just teasing our desires? Or are they just plain nonsense?

I can't stop thinking about my dreams lately. You've been in all of them this past week. Last night in my dream you gave me a huge hug and told me you loved me and I swear it seemed so real, it's haunting me I can't stop thinking about it. You know those feelings you get when you wake up and you swear what happened in your dream happened in real life? That was my dream last night, and the day before that, and the day before that. I hate them. I hate them hate them hate them.


But then, you don't want the dream to stop. I want you in my dreams every night, but I don't want to wake up with that feeling in the pit of my stomach. I hate not knowing if the world is trying to tell me something, or if it's just mocking me because I'll never let go of the thought of us.

Sleep tight.

Song stuck in my head today: "Dreaming With A Broken Heart" by John Mayer (this is one of my favorite dance routines choreographed by the Goddess, Mia Michaels)

Keep on keepin' on,

Madison

Dare to Dream

Dreams are funny little things. Not the ones you have in your sleep. Well, those are very funny, but I'm talking about the dreams YOU create. The things you hope and wish for in life, even though the odds are against you. But, not a specific dream. One that's just a random slurr of events, not something that you can acheive solely by yourself. Like that somewhat stupid dream that you have about having your first kiss on a ferris wheel, the one that you know will never happen but you still think about at night. Maybe you dream about having crazy adventures on a road trip, but you're not quite sure what those adventures would be but the thought of it keeps you from focusing in class. Those dreams that make no sense, that you don't know how they'd happen or what they would entail but you know you want them.

Not to be Debbie downer, but they probably won't happen. You're going to have your first kiss in some sleazy game of spin the bottle and you might go on that road trip and be completely adventure-less. These dreams of yours, can't be achieved sometimes by just your doing. I mean, you could grab a random guy and kiss him at your street fair, and you could do something stupid while on the road that makes you run from the law. But you know that's not what you want. You want something, seamless, perfect, and completely "random" something that will happen that's not obvious to others but you smile to yourself knowing you've hoped something like this would happen for a while. But who knows! Things have a wierd way of falling into place. The first time you spin the bottle, it could land on the boy you've always had a soft spot for since middle school and the kiss could be totally amazing! The road trip you go on could be peaceful and touching, and not what you expected but you'll never forget it.

I ask myself sometimes if these dreams are necessary. If they don't happen then what's their purpose? Are they there to mock us, and taunt us, because the didn't happen? Or are they there to keep us going, to help us strive for something greater?

That's what life does. You throw something out there, and most likely, you'll get something different in return. But you got to run with what life gives you, give it a try and hopefully you can make it just as great as what you asked for in the first place. Because not all dreams can be a reality and not all reality is a dream.

I wonder if I'll still be sitting in my closest dreaming my little dreams, or if any of them will come true.

Song stuck in my head today: Read my other post and find out!

Keep on keepin' on,

Madison