The One.

I think you know you've found 'the one' when you know everything about them. You know how they react to things, every little movement they could possibly have made is etched into your mind. I think you know you've found 'the one' when you can have a good time with them anywhere and everywhere. Wheter you're at home, work, school, movies, supermarket, a parking lot whatever! I think you know you've found 'the one' when they treat you the same in every situation. Where you know they're there for you and love you if you're with your friends, their friends, your family, their family, strangers, colleagues, fellow employees. Even if you're a complete embarrassment to them in front of people they desperately want to impress, they won't give up on you. They love you just they way you are. Song stuck in my head today: "Seven Nation Army" by The White Stripes Keep on keepin' on, Madison

Happy Valentine's Day! ♥

Oh, Valentine's day. I don't hate it, (well maybe sometimes) but I don't LOVE it either.

Some people say they dislike Valentine's day because everyday should be filled with love, and they're absolutely right. But sometimes the non-romantics out there need a little nudge, and Hallmark definitely seems to benefit from it. My Valentine's day is never anything really special. I mean I'm never in a relationship when it rolls around so all my yummy chocolate and little bears holding hearts come from friends and family. This year my mom gave me and my sister candy in a heart shaped container, and cards of course. Any holiday staple! My mom found this awesome Glee card for me ('cause she's amazing) and it really made my day. So what I don't have a boyfriend! I have my family, I'm loved by people who really really care about me. I mean does it make me upset that I don't have a 'special person' to be with this 14th of February? Sure, of course. But I'm not going to spend the night watching The Notebook with a pint of Haagen Daz (get real, Pretty Little Liars is on!). Because love isn't constricted to boyfriend and girlfriend, love is the affection you have for your mom or dad, your siblings, your aunts, uncles, grandparents, best friends, whoever. Your dog, your fish even! So today celebrate the love you have for others, whoever they may be. And try to get your hands on some chocolate or Necco hearts if you're able to! ;)

But, if you're still feeling lonely on V-Day. Click here, I think you can laugh at something everyone goes through at some point.

Song stuck in my head today: "All You Need Is Love" by the cast of Across the Universe

Keep on keepin' on,

Madison

Speak Your Mind.

"There's really only like, three couples in this school. Well I guess out of us, the normal kids. All the faggots go out with each other. They just soak up in each other's loserness."

What would you do if you overheard someone say this?

Your sitting at your table, working on your art project and you can't help but over hear this conversation.

Would you react?

Would you tell the girl she's the loser for making this comment?

Would you laugh along?

Would you give this girl the reality check she desperately needs?

Or, would you just sit there?

Like I did.

Don't you wish you could freeze time and just slap yourself in the face at certain moments? I guess I was just too shocked to even move a muscle.

Honestly, do you believe this crap? Because I was there. She said it all right. And as she sat there content with her social status and blatant display of it, I did nothing.

I did nothing!

Me, I didn't do anything.

How am I that stupid?! Normally I always speak my mind but lately it's been getting trapped. The words just get all smashed together and become this tiny gasp.

People I know are those 'faggots'.

I know quite I few people that I'm friendly with who would surely fit that description.

That sounds bad, but I know who and what this girl is talking about.

She basically means the whole freshman class!

I'd say 10%, maybe less, would fit the first category of 'normal kids'. When she said that she just meant her friends.

Well, my friends are the ones she calls loser! And if anyones the loser,

it's her!

She just can't come to terms that her boyfriend still likes this other chick.

She doesn't get why her looks can't get her a good relationship like the 'faggots' have.

Sorry honey but that's not 'loserness' they're soaking in.

It's honesty and young love, something you haven't learned yet.

Next time, I'll let you know.

Song stuck in my head today: "Geek In The Pink" by Jason Mraz (MY boyfriend!)

Keep on keepin' on,

Madison

Track.

Track's great! I love hearing people talk about being in track, I really don't know why but everything you can say about it is pretty funny. My favorites so far....

"You should be in a freak show...!"

"That's what track is!"

"Track and XC are the only sports where an old guy with a gun can tell you to take your clothes off."

"Everyone dates everyone on the track team. We're one big family, it's a little like incest more in a more excepted form."

♥

Song stuck in my head today: "Saskia Hamilton" by Ben Folds & Nick Hornby

Keep on keepin' on,

Madison

A Medley Of Thoughts

There are too many things I need to write about today! So many things happened that I wanted to write about or had to do with what I wrote about yesterday, so here it goes...

I have my first track meet tomorrow. I'm really nervous! I'm less nervous now after thinking about it for a while but I still can't believe it's tomorrow! So this morning on the bus I listened to some music to keep my mind off of it. The first song that came on shuffle was "The Remedy (I Won't Worry)" by Jason Mraz. Isn't it funny how the subtitle encompassed it all? I love how music has its way of doing that.

So shine the light on all of your friends. When it all amounts to nothing in the end.

So if you have something pretty minor coming up like a track meet (they don't change anything huge in my life!) but you're still nervous, don't worry because in the big scheme of this world it really won't matter much.

Something happened today that I really wanted to vent about so much! It reminded me of my whole honesty post and how this blog is supposed to help me, not suppress my feelings! I think the world was giving me a test to see if I'd write about it or not, well thanks world for screwing up my night! It was like something so cheesy out of a movie. Ugh, if only I could tell you in full detail. I really am afraid though... why can't I be open about certain things?! Please show me someone who honestly doesn't give a crap about anything people have to say! I need them. I want to vent about it so badly.

I'll try.

It'll sound weird but I'll try, for my own sake.

I was talking to someone today and in the most slow and hushed tone they said "So... I was thinking..."

Turns out, after minutes of avoiding the subject and beating around the bush, they just wanted to bring up someone they used to like.

WHAT?! Gosh, if only I could tell you how the whole conversation went, seriously! You got my hopes up and created all this damn suspense over some girl you liked! ARE YOU KIDDING ME? Don't you hate when people do that?? Don't you?! Honestly the person said "No, never mind." No! Don't never mind me, you say you wanted to tell me something: so spill! But then when it turns out to be a total, complete and utter letout it makes it even worse! Hey buddy, normally when people beat around the bush it means they have to share something secretive, important or heartfelt. I know you had the hots for her and if you had common sense you would remember I was sorta against the whole thing!

Anyways, now that I somewhat got that off my chest and feel really silly and odd but happy...

When I got home in a bad mood after this conversation I saw that my mom had hung up the Christmas stockings and I really stood there, smiled, and said "Thank you" to these velvet oversized boots because they welcomed me and as freaky as this sounds, made me feel a whole lot better.

Song stuck in my head today: "Stuck On You" by Sugarland

Keep on keepin' on,

Madison

Honesty.

I've always been pretty good with being an open book. There's only a few people I have trouble being open with. Besides that, ask me anything and most likely I'll answer honestly. When I started writing this blog I thought it'd be easy for me to convey my raw, honest, stupid, weird thoughts just for me to vent. I know people are reading this, I have followers, people vote on polls, leave comments, talk to me about it in life etc. I don't even know if it's the fact that there's someone (YOU!) out there reading this, but lately I've really wanted to get myself to write about things, things I feel SO strongly and I resort to making them small encrypted paragraphs even I don't understand sometimes. Why is that? Why do we have such a problem with people judging us? I'm really confident on so many levels, but there's just certain things that shut me up. I'll be chatting someone's ear off and the minute they ask me about something I'll just say "Oh, I don't know". WHY?! Well, there's reasons why but then I'd have to get into the gritty detail of the actual subject. No thanks, I'll close my book right now.

Pst. To be honest I think you're gorgeous and it kills me every time I don't tell you.

Song stuck in my head today: reeaddd more!

Keep on keepin' on,

Madison

Current State: Happy In Your Presence

There comes a point, when you just cherish their presence. Just being with them is better off knowing how they really feel.

The laughs, smiles, every blissful second is great when you don't worry about the feelings.

And knowing that you're making the right decison, having your own little secret.
Because if you let it out there's a chance the smiles may turn to frowns.

Song stuck in my head today: ♥

Keep on keepin' on,

Madison

MENTIONS

So... I promised a few people some blog mentions and here's the remainder of them!

Alana Epstein If you actually read anything I post, you'll remember my post about my other friend Shilpa who I met under these really random circumstances. Well, in a way Alana's friendship with me was sort of like that. Alana and I have gone to school together since we were in kindergarten but only in 7th grade did we become close and honestly I wonder where she's been all my life! Oh, wait. She was always right there.... Isn't that so wierd? When someones always been there but you've never really talked to them and then once you do it's hard to imagine life without them? Alana and I have so much in common and we love all the same things I thought no one else knew of. I really hope Alana and I stay friends throughout high school and I love every moment we're together! By the way... her blog I was trying to share with you all is no longer on Blogger but you can read it all on Tumblr! CLICK HERE

Kara & Meghan Cramise

I don't know how you spend your summers but I spend mine at VBS and without this camp every summer I would've never met Kara and Meghan. The group of friends I share my summer with are amazing and I can't imagine spending those few months with anyone else... I miss you Kara and Meghan! I have the best times with both of you and can't wait until I get to see either of you again. You're each so great in your own ways (wow that sounds cheesy, but hey, its true) and I hope Meghan, that you're having fun teaching Kayla! Ha hope she doesn't bother you that much but she really loves being in your class. And Kara I know my summers would be a lot less funny and bright without you, hope you both are having a great year. :)

Stephanie Boegle
To cut to the chase, Steph is my cousin who is really like a sister. My life would be DRASTICALLY different without this chick and I cherish each conversation, picture, moment, and voicemail. I'm so thankful to live the life I live but I think God didn't realize how many gfts he'd already given me and threw me an extra one on accident. Stephanie is my go to girl. I tell her anything and everything and I really truly think she's the only person I have that much confidence in. Sometimes you can tell people things but it still leaves this wierd feeling in your stomach, not with Steph. Everything I tell her, no matter how deep and dark, is easy and natural. Steph is constantly and inspiration for my life, and is a person I am extremely thankful for. I love ya girlie!

Song stuck in my head today: "The Middle" by Jimmy Eat World

Keep on keepin' on,

Madison

Love is everyone's favorite topic.

Think about songs you listen to. Songs you hear on the radio, and on TV. Songs you love to dance to. What are they all about?

Love.

Wheter it's heartbreak, making up with an ex, falling head over heels or cursing out the pains that come with love, they all have a common theme; because we can all relate to love, and it comes in so many different forms and stories to share people don't even realize they're singing about the same thing over and over again! I find it amusing, but hey I'm drawn to it to. It's only natural I guess, and somehow it rarely ever tires me. I always have to stop to sing along.

If you've been with me from the start, you might recall my 'people watching' post. I talked about this girl in my orchestra class who, on a day when we had a substitute, started playing us all her original compositions. She made a new one, and she tried to play it for me, wedging herself between the piano and the white-board carrying a mountain of binders, but the stabbing sound of the dismissal bell tainted her wonderful song. I couldn't hear most of it because of the bell and the buzzing voices of students revving up for the end of the day, but I asked her what the song was about. She smiled at me and said, "What they're all about."

Love.

"All you need is love"

The Beatles

"If I should be so bold, I'd ask you to hold my heart in your hand. Tell you from the start how I've longed to be your man. But I never said a word I guess I'm gonna miss my chance again."

Jason Mraz

"Move to the city, loose all your heart, she weren’t that pretty, you ain’t too smart. Plenty of girls and boys in love, plenty of girls and boys in love."

Rumble Strips

"Feel like I'm falling and I'm lost in your eyes, you make me crazier, crazier."

Taylor Swift

"Goodbye my almost lover, goodbye my hopeless dreams."

A Fine Frenzy






"All my lovings, I will send to you."
The Beatles


Song stuck in my head today: "Hey Stephen" by Taylor Swift ;)

Keep on keepin' on,

Madison