Monday, June 6, 2011

My Life Is Slowly Slipping Away.

As you know*, I cry easily.

And I came close to wailing listening to "100 Years" today.

Finally, I found something to write about.

*(you should)


I'm 15 for a moment

Caught in between 10 and 20

And I'm just dreaming

Counting the ways to where you are


I'm 22 for a moment

She feels better than ever

And we're on fire

Making our way back from Mars

15 there's still time for you

Time to buy and time to lose

15, there's never a wish better than this

When you only got 100 years to live


I'm 33 for a moment

Still the man, but you see I'm a they

A kid on the way

A family on my mind


I'm 45 for a moment

The sea is high

And I'm heading into a crisis

Chasing the years of my life

15 there's still time for you

Time to buy, Time to lose yourself

Within a morning star


15 I'm all right with you

15 there's never a wish better than this

When you only got 100 years to live

Half time goes by

Suddenly you’re wise

Another blink of an eye

67 is gone

The sun is getting high

We're moving on...


I'm 99 for a moment

Dying for just another moment

And I'm just dreaming

Counting the ways to where you are

15 there's still time for you

22 I feel her too

33 you’re on your way

Every day's a new day...

15 there's still time for you

Time to buy and time to choose

Hey 15, there's never a wish better than this

When you only got 100 years to live

I have nothing to show for my life, people at the age of 15 have broken records, saved lives, won awards, created charities, started a movement! And while I'm content with my life, and I should be, it's hard not to wonder what I could be doing right, or wrong.

What if I die tomorrow.



I would've died without going to London, without having a baby, without taking a photo class, without being on a ferris wheel, without seeing my sisters grow up, without being a senior, with kissing you.



So why is it so damn hard for me to do what I want?! People always say "live as if today was your last!" "carpe diem!" "live life without regrets!", so when will that truly happen for me. I know it's my fault for not doing it. Whatever it may be.





So, here's my challenge for myself, if I better come back here in the beginning of Septemeber with stories to tell, things to say, and pictures to back it up with! I will do things I've always wanted to do, fill up my day with things better than sitting around watching Mob Wives and being on tumblr. I will chase my dreams and have a talk with a certain boy that is long overdue. I must, I have to.



And I will you tell you guys everything! No more randomly leaving the blog- unless I'm just having that much fun LIVING!



Song stuck in my head today: click above!!



Keep on keepin' on,



Madison

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