Thursday, August 4, 2011
My mom said we should decide if I'm having a party or not by the end of the summer, because if we are we need to start booking and getting prepared.
At first I was all gung-ho for this party, I thought it seemed like a great idea! I get to wear an amazing gown, I get to dance the night away with all my friends and family, eat my favorite foods, have everyone 'ooh' and 'awww' at my montage, make a playlist of music for my DJ. But then my parents informed me there's be a change of plans and a party is no longer in the future because we're going to Florida next April on a big trip with lots of relatives.
At first I was upset, I thought the party seemed like the easiest way to celebrate, you didn't have to think of anything besides a theme or what dress you were going to wear, but I realized (or rather my pointed it out to me) the reason why I was starting to love the idea of a party, when a few months ago I said I didn't care for a big bash, was because this way I didn't have to leave anyone out. I could invite everyone. Even those people that secretly I think are so fucking annoying, but I'm obliged to be friends with them. We all have those people, and I thought having a big party would be the easiest way to not have to deal with there "Why aren't I invited?! I thought we were close!", and even those awkward in-the-middle-friends. Where you're close, but you've only hung out a few times so you're unsure if you'd invite them to a small party or not.
But sometimes you have to step back, and just surround yourself with people you truly want to be with. I know you should always be kind, and I'm not saying that you have to rudely stop talking to them forever or something, but give them a hint. Let them down kindly.
Now I'm doing something smaller- but just as fun! - for my birthday. What yet, I do not know. But I'll probably go to the city with a couple friends and do something fun. I know once January rolls around I'm going to have to answer peoples nagging questions of, "Why was I not invited?". But sometime or another we all have to be the bearer of bad news.
Song stuck in my head today: "Every Teardrop is a Waterfall" by Coldplay
Keep on keepin' on,
Thursday, July 21, 2011
If you're annoying me, I'll let you know. I'm not gonna be able to tolerate you for to long, you're going to notice me distancing myself, so how could you say all these lovely things to me? How could you say it sucked that I was leaving you. Over, and over again. How could you lead me on like that, then drop me dry?
How could you.
Every day since we met I've thought of you, and now I swear, people will laugh in my face if I told them I knew you. If I told them I spent 3, outstanding days with you. Told them how you complimented me, how you wanted to know more about me. How upset you were when I left. Told them all about you- they would say I made it up.
But, you did teach me a lesson. Quite a few I guess. So, you didn't fuck it up that much- kinda.
Song stuck in my head today: "I Do" by Colbie Caillat
Keep on keepin' on,
Saturday, July 16, 2011
Thursday night, I lined up with a bunch of my family members and their friends to see Harry Potter and The Deathly Hallows Part 2. We dressed up, saw some crazy fans L.A.R.P.ing and just had SO much fun. It was amazing, just the whole atmosphere. I wanted to stay there forever!
Me and my cousin Emily, (I'm on the right!).
Going to a midnight movie is definitely exciting and fun, but I think you'll enjoy it more if you're a true fan of whatever you're going to see! Like even though I read and enjoy the Twilight series, I don't think I'd go and see Breaking Dawn at midnight because I'm not CRAZY about it. Hopefully something else will capture my heart like Harry Potter, but until then, and forever always- long lived The Boy Who Lives!
Song stuck in my head today:.....
Keep on keepin' on,
Tuesday, July 5, 2011
Monday, July 4, 2011
Friday, June 10, 2011
One of the best days this year!
Halloween 2010- 1st shaving cream fight with these amazing kids!
Halloween 2010- Dressing up as Reptar ♥
JV Soccer 2010!! Gonna miss you all next season :(
Seeing We The Kings live! :D
Turning 15- And spending it with my best friend ever!
Meeting Kuds in drama :) Oh, and wearing that lovely dress! Ha DRAMA 2010-2011♥
Monday, June 6, 2011
I'm 15 for a moment
I'm 22 for a moment
I have nothing to show for my life, people at the age of 15 have broken records, saved lives, won awards, created charities, started a movement! And while I'm content with my life, and I should be, it's hard not to wonder what I could be doing right, or wrong.
What if I die tomorrow.
Sunday, June 5, 2011
Wednesday, June 1, 2011
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
Best Song(s): "Bubble Toes" - Jack Johnson + Mike Chang's dancing = heaven
Part that made me smile: The return of once glee club director, Sandy Jenkins.
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
Song stuck in my head today: "Holiday" by the cast of American Idiot
Keep on keepin' on,
Friday, April 15, 2011
Monday, April 11, 2011
Me today running my 100 :)** Drama isn't all the hell-hole I portrayed it to be these past couple months, yes it made me threaten to kill myself multiple times a day I'd say but in the end, a show is a show. And if you get joy out of putting it on, it was worth it. And I did I love putting on the show and I definitely don't regret my decision on auditioning. Will I do it next year? Only time will tell, but as of now I don't hate drama, even though you might think I do. :) Song stuck in my head today: "Song of Love" from Once Upon a Mattress :P Keep on keepin' on, Madison
Thursday, April 7, 2011
Thursday, March 31, 2011
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
Thursday, March 24, 2011
Names. My thoughts on names:
1.)First off, I notice the first time someone calls me "Maddie". Sometimes it'll freak people out, the new friend I made will greet my with a big "Maddie!!" and I'll stop and go, "You just called me Maddie for the first time!". Then I just get this stare, and a laugh. I guess I realize this because it shows that someone thinks they're close to me when they call me Maddie. When people who aren't close with my call my that it's just... creepy.
2.) I hate when people write one of my many nicknames as Maddi. Or Madi. I just don't like it. There's only two people who can spell it like that, my best friend and his mom. Other than that you will be corrected. Maddie, Maddy even Maddey if you really want to be creative!
3.) Isn't it weird that we don't pick our names? It's the only thing we come with into this life, and it's basically the only thing we have for the rest of it that is truly ours. But really not, because we had no say in it. I think your name is your first test. It's your first situation where the world has given you something and you just have to make do with it. Lots of times that happens in life and you just gotta suck it up and take what this crazy ride throws at you. I don't think you should go out and change your name. It's something you were given, something to live up to, it's like the skin on your bones and it should and will always be with you wheter you like it or not.
4.) Naming a baby is such a weird experience. What if you give your baby this extremely amazing name, like Athena or something. Something big, or something different and unique and it they don't live up to it. What if you have a boy and name them Drizzle and they end up being a fat plumber or something... I don't know! Haha I mean when you hear a name before seeing a person's face you just get this image in your head and some people just do not match up to their names.
5.) My friends always make fun of my because I love 'weird' baby names. Eh, yeah it's true I guess but I think these names are gorgeous: Gemma, Brooklyn, Meadow.......
6.) We've talked about this before but, I love it when you say my name. Love it. :)