A Quick Update :)

So, in the end I decided to go with my friends and be Rugrats characters because seeing their outfits and thinking about it made it seem a lot more fun. I was Reptar my friend Danielle was Lil, my other friend Danielle was Tommy, my friend Amanda was Kimmy and my friend Alana was Chuckie. It turned out really cute and everyone loved the idea :) Even though we looked sorta funny people got it and thought it was really clever!

The rest of my Halloween was really good! I trick-or-treated with a group of my friends and my family and got tons of candy. Hope yours was just as great (:

Song stuck in my head today: "Spiralling" by Keane

Keep on keepin' on,

Madison

World of Jenks: "Freedom's Flight" The Buried Life: "Ask Out The Girl of Your Dreams (Part II)"

Best episodes by far for both shows. If you haven't seen them GO NOW!

(sorry this review is two weeks late, my computer and TV have both been having problems)

This week Andrew lives the life of Brogan a young Miami Beach native who is extremely passionate about stopping illegal horse slaughter farms in the south Florida area. I've never watched something so eye-opening in my life. Right when Jenks got to Brogan's hometown she had him ducking in disguise in front of a slaughter farm on the outskirts of Miami. Every day she and Jenks put their lives on the line in order to protect the lives of the horses. Though she understood the severity of her actions Brogan never hesitated when approaching the farm owners or shooting her gun. She did everything and anything to secure the lives of the helpless animals.

You really can't understand all Brogan puts out there until you watch the episode for yourself. There's a price on her head for her actions and people she's affiliated with from the horse slaughter farms. Her boyfriend's identity had to be kept a secret while Jenks filmed to ensure his own safety. Brogan however didn't change any of the information that's shown on World of Jenks in an effort to really expose the truth of what she does. She realizes that life is short so you either put your all into something or it's not worth it. If she dies trying to save the horses than so be it. It's better than dying in some car accident or random act of violence.

Brogan's whole lifestyle was so inspirational, the problem is what do I do with all that inspiration? I've always wanted to get involved and Brogan does more than that. Her life is now the lives of the horses she saves, she's not just passing out pamphlets like Andrew assumed when he first decided on this story. All this work she does for the ASA is voluntary. She struggles to have ends meet just like any other person. Some may think she is revered and rewarded for her heroic actions but on some occasions it is the exact opposite. Brogan is a real hero and role model for everyone. I hope to find ways to follow in her actions.

The Buried Life this week was just as enjoyable. The boys set out on their second try of #59: Ask out the girl of your dreams. Ben's attempt to ask out Megan Fox last year was so close and now they've decided to try it again but this time giving Duncan a whack at it. He has had his eyes on pop country star (one of my favorites!) Taylor Swift ever since their brief meeting in an airport. Duncan fell for her down-to-earth attitude and sweet demeanor so the boys (minus Ben who was helping out someone pursue their own dreams) devised a plan to have the moment between Duncan and Taylor at the CMT awards in Nashville Tennessee this past summer. The guys made their first stop at a thrift store to pick out disguises they would use to transform their trio into Boone McCaw, up and coming country sensation, Pipe Wilson, his manager, and Padagonia the eccentric backup bass player. With the hilarious outfits, great voices and sweet ending the episode was amazing.

Since the guys needed to spend so much time on coming up with a plan to get to Taylor Swift, they couldn't show a lengthy clip about the dream of a random stranger they were helping to achieve. So for a brief minute or two before a commercial there was a segment about Jonnie's quest to help an older man find his lost love, Joyce Hook. In a way that resembled this year's blockbuster Letters to Juliet the Buried Life team was trying to get any leads on where Australian native Joyce Hook might be now, and how they could find her. Visit their website to find out how you can help the search!

Song stuck in my head today: "Dear God" by XTC

Keep on keepin' on,

Madison

Today is Appreciation Day

Lately I've been walking around my house with a smile on my face.

Lately I've been shivering with happiness with every funny joke, good snack, and great moment I live.

Lately I've been sitting in my room just laughing to myself.

Lately I've been having these awesome days.

And lately I've been really stopping and saying: Wow, life is good.

I'm not saying that my life has been nothing but perfect lately but October does seem to give me nothing but good every year! So I just wanted to remind everyone to cherish every moment and start thinking positive if you already don't! There's always a time to start living life with a happier demeanor. Focus on the good things life give you for it takes a stronger person to appreciate the smaller and more meaningful things in life than to sit around and whine about their troubles. Bad experiences seem to stick in our heads stronger than the small blissful ones sometimes so start focusing on things you're grateful for (like The Flower List!). Maybe by going back and looking at old photos, videos, journals or letters can help you relive the great moments you've had but don't think more won't come!

Song stuck in my head today: "Pack Up" by Eliza Doolittle <--- CLICKKKK

Keep on keepin' on,

Madison

There's An Air Filled With Scare

The fall just creates this great pyramid effect with holidays, each one getting better and better.

Halloween

Thanksgiving

Christmas!

First up, Halloween. I have NO clue what I'm being this year and costume day for my high school is this Friday (we just include it in Homecoming/Spirit Week). All my friends are being the characters from Rugrats but I don't know how I'd dress up for that, and while I think it's super cute, I'm just not feeling it right now. Last year for school I was a solider and then a devil on actual Halloween. I'm thinking about being a Twister mat or a zombie, but I don't know how to pull of either let alone in four days! I loooove Halloween. My house is filled with spooky crafts, orange and black candles, and we have freaky heads and spider webs hanging outside. I've never understood how people can not love Halloween. Heeeellloooo candy and costumes? How much better can it get?!

Got any suggestions for me? (Psh, no you all never comment!!)

Song stuck in my head today: "Break Even" by The Script

Keep on keepin' on,

Madison

Woes of A Wannabe Drop Out

You could say I only feel this way because school started less than a month ago and I'm feeling those new school blues, or maybe you think all kids/teens are mindless school hating robots. But as I'm sitting there 4th period, learning how to prove triangles congruent in Geometry I stop and think: Will I EVER use this again? The answer is always, no. I realize that you need to learn these things because you never know where your life can take you but there comes a certain point where I've realized that I'm not going to be a mathmetician, and architect, or anything to do with science! Time is precious and and I shouldn't be wasting it in an acne-infested classroom learining cell structure and pythagoreom theorem. I should be out there enjoying life, helping others, and pursuing things that make ME happy! Not the people grading the SATs. I don't give a damn about scalene triangles or how Egyptians farmed.

I'm not going to be here for that long, and I don't want to look back on life and see that I spent so much time freaking out on miniscule things like how well I memorized the functions of the cell membrane. I want to be able to live a lavish life in the future but why must all this unecessary work be involved?! I'm sick of just going with the ebb and flow of school work. Look at all the people who've dropped out and were able to pursue their dreams and become super successful! Half the people we apsire to be or look up to don't even have a high school diploma. It's always nice to have a fall back but shouldn't you pursue what you want and not what's most reliable but boring?

"Hours on the phone making pointless calls
I got a desk full of papers that means nothing at all
Sometimes I catch myself staring into space
Counting down the hours 'til I get to see your face

Why must I spend my time
Filling up my mind
With facts and figures that never add up anyway?
They never add up anyway"

- "Hey Julie" by Fountains of Wayne

Song stuck in my head today: hmm.....

Keep on keepin' on,

Madison

Glee Review #13: "Duets" (Episode 4, Season 2)

A simple, sweet, and saucy episode of Glee may not have satisfied many viewers this week, but I for one was happy with it. You can't always have an amazing episode!

*SPOILER ALERT*

Music, music, music. I always love glee club competitions. They make for great collaborations and edgy songs. "Don't Go Breaking My Heart" was simple, cute, and all around great. "River Deep - Mountain High" was super fun and upbeat, Santana was really getting into it! "Le Jazz Hot" was astounding. Kurt always has some amazing routine up his sleeve that is sure to leave you wanting more, he's constantly changing it up. "Lucky" was adorable, but I was surprised that the song I was most excited for wasn't as great as "Sing!". "Sing!" was the show-stopper of the night in my opinion, I LOVED IT. Rachel and Kurt's collab at the end of the episode was super cute, but what's with Rachel's histrionic faces lately? Get over it!

So, drama started off fast. Point blank: No Puck?! I'm curious to where our favorite bad boy has gone- in the script that is. Sam and Quinn was really a surprise too. I thought Kurt was supposed to fall in love with Sam! Very confusing...

Three important points...

1.) Is Puck written out of the show?!

At the beginning of the season there were many rumors that someone was going to be written out of the show due to budget cuts. But with Puck being in the first three episode already, could it have been him? I know they lost a member already (whoops, forgot his name!) but some sources say that Puck or Artie were both considered as characters not needed anymore. Not true! I miss Puck.

2.) Where's Kurt's boyfriend??

So I told you all before that Sam was casted as Kurt's boyfriend, and in the beginning of the episode it does seem like he's "playing for Kurt's team", but then as the episode progresses it turns out that Sam has the hots for Quinn... ?! I want Kurt to fall in love! I want him to be happy and joyful, and not to feel lonely anymore. So I hope this thing with Quinn is nothing but a fling.

3.) Do you think Glee approaches Brittany's sex life wrong?

Brittany's flings with every guy and girl in the school makes for some funny one liners, but do you think they're starting to over exaggerate it? I never in a million years would've guessed that Artie had sex with Brittany. He obviously cared so much about his virginity but he throws it away just like that? It was all very confusing... I mean wasn't it obvious to him that Brittany had no real feelings for him?? Or was he just too lonely without Tina? I just didn't like that part at all.

Tina and Mike at the end of "Sing!"

Some things that I'd like to mention....

• I want to go to Breadsticks! It sounds awesome. Haha.
• The Santana and Brittany scene was stupid. (Except I loved seeing her room)
• I thought it was so funny how everyone wanted Sam to win
• Quinn looked so pretty in this episode!
• Brittany at Breadsticks was hilarious

Your quotes!
"You're crazy circa 2010." - Mercedes
"I know for a while I thought you were a robot." - Brittany
"I just want to get you in a stroller." - Brittany
"Maybe we should go to Asians couple therapy." - Mike
"You're my stress test." - Burt
"He's on team gay. No straight boy does his hair to look like Linda Evangelista circa 1983." - Kurt
"How can you do a duet by yourself? That's like vocal masturbation." - Santana

I can't wait for next week's episode. I love the Rocky Horror theme, the movie is insane and I can't wait to see how Glee will adapt to it. There's also going to be more of Sue's news program, which I love! (Yes we cane!) Here's next week's songs....
"Science Fiction/Double Feature"
"Dammit Janet"
"Hot Patootie"
"Sweet Transvestite"
"Touch-a, Touch-a, Touch-a, Touch Me"
"Over at the Frankenstein Place"
"The Time Warp"

Song stuck in my head today: "Mine" by Taylor Swift

Keep on keepin' on,

Madison

Back to Basics: A Flower List Update

Do you watch Jersey Shore?

12% said YES! OMG fave show

25% said Sometimes when I remember

12% said I'm obsesseddddd

0% said Never heard of it.

12% said Ew, are you kidding me?

25% said That shows gross.

12% said I won't admit it but... yes.

Everywhere you go, people know the Jersey Shore. Since none of my readers vote "Never heard of it." I won't bother describing it, it might be too explicit for this blog anyways! Haha, but anytime you mention this MTV hit, you're sure to get a strong reaction. "OMG GTL!" "That should be banned from TV." "T-Shirt time!!" "I don't know why people waste their time with that."

I myself am not an avid watcher. I wanted to talk about this because it seems to you guys probably that I'm obsessed with every other MTV show! Why not? Truthfully: I like to be in my room winding down by 10 o'clock. I'm the kind of person that needs their sleep! And since I don't have a TV in my room, rarely do I watch it when it's a new episode. I do watch episodes with my friends sometimes or if their on during the weekend, but besides that the "Shore" is out of my house most of the time. I personally think this show is hysterical. Some people take it way to seriously, and some don't. I just laugh and play along with the scripted and not so scripted antics the guidos display, and it doesn't affect me afterwards. Some people though, have to get their heads out of all that hairspray, and some need to get their heads out of a Bible. It's not poisonous! It's stupid. And watching stupid doesn't automatically make you stupid... well for me anyways. You can't blame a certain thing like a TV show or a video game entirely for people's actions. Everyone responds to things differently. What do you think of the show?

Song stuck in my head today: "We Speak No Americano" by Yolanda Be Cool Vrs DCUP (fits right?)

Keep on keepin' on,

Madison

World of Jenks: "The Takeover" The Buried Life: "Get Married in Vegas"

So, this week's MTV episode of World of Jenks and The Buried Life both had one thing in common: VEGAS. Parties, pokers, penguins (!) the whole sha-bang.

Uncovering the real truth again, is Andrew Jenks. This week he rooms with a young pro poker player, Nick Schulman who at the age of 21 was the youngest person to win the World Poker Series. I don't know about you, but I don't know a thing about poker or the lifestyle of its professionals besides the fact that this game is played with cards... So thank you Andrew Jenks for making an episode that I watch with a clean slate! This episode surprised me in a few different ways. First off, I never realized how addicted someone could become to betting/gambling/playing poker. Nick never stopped playing poker, or making crazy bets with his buddies from the moment Jenks arrived to when he took his flight back to NY. It was crazy! While at the house Nick played online poker (where he won or lost real money), played Chinese poker with his friend, and bet his friend $500 for every time he threw a card into an ice bucket. After this, Nick took Jenks out for a night on the town which consisted of what seemed like endless rounds of shots, pool games motivated with money, rock paper scissor bets, and more poker! With all this money flying left and right, it was hard to keep count of what Nick was actually gaining compared to his losses. His life was so crazy and he would bet money at the drop of a hat. The thing that seemed odd though was he didn't care much about the money. He told Andrew that when he played, he thought about the units. He won x amount of units not $10,000. That was his thought process. Pretty wild...

The last thing that shook me was Nick's mental state. He was never truly happy in his time with Andrew, and hasn't been for a while. Andrew was able to capture a moment that Nick shared with his therapist and Nick felt like his poker playing was a sanctuary. That his love for the game started as a way to escape his depression. The rush of the money, and all that poker encompassed made him feel happy. But if he lost, that was it. Nick dropped out of high school because he suffered from these panic attacks and severe anxiety. It completely changed my view of how he lived, and what he went through. Living life without being really happy. I don't know how I could go on.

The Buried Life boys seemed to have a much more lively stay in the sin city, they were trying to cross of #91 "Get married in Vegas". I was excited to see how they'd compete this task, because I think it'd be pretty hard to find a girl willing to get married on the spot in only 72 hours. But, the boys pulled through. In the end Dave did tie the knot to Michelle, who he met at their hotel in Vegas while she was on duty as a lifeguard. The whole episode was great and I was so surprised how they managed to get everything worked out in the end! They pawned their bus once they found out Michelle would marry Dave because they wanted money to spend on blackjack to try to get noticed by some of the hotel bigwigs so they could get hooked up with a penthouse suite. It. Worked. Duncan and Jonnie faked their way through a game of blackjack and ended up with $5,000 and a free suite for a night. After stirring up conversation with a man next to them, he pulled one guys over that worked for the hotel and let them work out a comp with the boys for a suite. It was unbelievable! The suite had a bowling alley, huge rooms, a hot tub, everything! I don't know how they did it. So after throwing a huge party for Dave and his bride to be complete with fire-breathers, flashy cars, Jonnie decked out in a penguin suit, and a bubble bath fight, they went to the chapel to say their vows. Though I was still shocked at the end of the episode that the really went through with it, Dave and Michelle are still going strong. I don't know what to make of this, and I guess I really don't have to make something of this. But I feel like I always have an opinion or an inclination about something. I think marriage is a sacred thing like Dave's mother says, but why not? Why not have some crazy fling? Ah, I don't know. I mean you fall in love so many times in your life. People whose spouses die find new lovers, does that mean their first marriage wasn't meant to be? If everyone can move on in their lives will we ever really know who is the one for us?

In this episode the guys help Rick, a man living under the streets of the Vegas strip in the sewers, find his way back to his daughter who now has her own daughter that he hasn't seen in years and years. At first I was shocked to hear of Rick's lifestyle, and that many others live the same way. Living under the sewers of Vegas is not only unsanitary, scary, and just like living on the streets but you have the added danger of being washed out of your 'home' at any given time. There was one time, Rick says, when he wasn't sure if he would make it out. It makes me really appreciate the life I have. After a long road trip the boys find their way to Rick's daughter's house in Missouri. I teared when I saw him standing at her door with a bouquet of flowers and a stuffed animal. It made me so happy that the guys were able to put this together for Rick and his family.

Song stuck in my head today: "Who Owns My Heart?" by Miley Cyrus (Sorry, I had to watch that video!)

Keep on keepin' on,

Madison

Glee Review #12: "Grilled Cheesus" (Episode 3, Season 2)

I'M SO SORRY I'VE BEEN BEHIND, I WAS BUSY WITH SCHOOL ELECTIONS AND WAS AWAY THIS COLOMBUS WEEKEND WITHOUT COMPUTER ACCESS!

This episode did not in anyway disappoint, while some thought it was too sad I felt it was amazing! The storylines were so heartfelt and endearing, and you really saw the glee club come together in the end.

*SPOILER ALERT* (By now you should've watched it though!)

It's a proven fact that any guy with a guitar is automatically swoon worthy, and the fact that Puck did a Billy Joel song made it even better. I LOVED "Only The Good Die Young", the whole club got into it and it was all great. "Papa Can You Hear Me".... well it proves that the writer's go to length to fit Rachel Berry in for a solo. It was great, but took a while to set in and was a bit overwhelming. As an avid Beatles fan I love the song "I Want To Hold Your Hand". I think it's one of the best love songs. But after "Grilled Cheesus" I will never look at it the same. The point of view that Kurt had while singing this song, did a total 180 from what we were use to with this classic ballad. It blew my mind. The other song I was most looking forward to, "Losing My Religion", did not disappoint at all. Finn delivered it beautifully and I loved every second. Seeing Mercedes sing "Bride Over Troubled Water" was great, I loved Kurt's hat in that scene!

Besides the obvious fact that Kurt's dad was sick in this episode, not much other drama came into play. I thought the whole fiasco with Burt Hummel was written well, and the only other side note I made was about Finn's wish to become quarterback again. While I'm glad he's back in the glorified position, as he should, I was shocked at how it came to him! But as you see, Sam will be returning next episode (tonight AH!) and I'm super stoked for that.

My questions... (hard to come up with!)
1.) Since Sam is injured in the football game, will he get a different storyline?
If you don't religiously and intently listen to the last minute after the credits roll, you'll see in the preview for next week's episode that, yes, Sam is back, and has his eyes on a certain head cheerleader...
2.) Will Burt's recovery pull together or strain Finn and Kurt's relationship?
Dealing with his dad's condition was hard for Kurt especially when he realized just how badly Finn was affected by it too. Now that Burt is all well again will Kurt push past things aside, and just be happy for his dad or will things stay the same?
3.) When will the love triangle of Artie, Mike, and Tina reach a boiling point?
Next week, I know there is some action between these three, but will this issue finally be resolved?! I'm excited for Mike's first solo. Whoohoo!

(Quick mention!) I thought Finn's wish to touch Rachel's boobs, as weird as it might have come off to others, was sweet in a way. The writers didn't come up with some other desire for Finn, they really gave him one that any other teenage boy would have! Some people thought it was awkward, but I applaud them for writing something realistic like that and not doing it in a too provocative way.

The glee club sings "One of Us"

Here's your quotes!

"Whenever I pray I fall asleep." - Brittany
"Is God an evil dwarf?" - Brittany
"This country isn't a monarchy William, trust me I've tried." - Sue
"Heart attacks are just from loving too much." - Brittany
"Now I know what Miley feels like." - Brittany
"I realize you're only half orangutan, but I'm still very allergic to your lustrous ginger mane." - Sue
"And last week you had to camp out early so you could be first in line for those Grey's Anatomy DVDs." - Burt
"I did a book report on heart attacks if you want to give it to the doctor. It got knocked down an entire letter grade because it was written in crayon." - Brittany

Tonight's episode titled "Duets" is going to be (hopefully) really great. I like that after all this drama they're getting back to their fun and old school glee club competitions that always make for interesting pairs, funny dialogue, and great songs. The twist though, it that new characters Sam starts to get the hots for Quinn Fabray?! Yep, I'm excited. The songs are...
"River Deep - Mountain High"
"Happy Days Are Here Again" / "Get Happy"
"Le Jazz Hot!"
"Don't Go Breaking My Heart"
"Lucky"
"Sing!"
Do they mean "Lucky" by Jason Mraz (AKA my future husband?) hope so. :)

Song stuck in my head today: "Loosing My Religion" by the cast of Glee

Keep on keepin' on,

Madison

O is for

Street fair, street fair, going to the street fair.

If I haven't mentioned it before. October is my favorite month. And so far it's been great. I kicked off the first weekend with my town's street fair: AMAZING. I live for the street fair. It's sad but true. My town doesn't have just any rinky dink street fair, it's huge. Filled with rides, free stuff, food, games and everything under the sun it draws in people from all over and was rated the 3rd best festival in the big area where I live. Since I'm in walking distance from the fair -so close I fall asleep to the noise of the rides- I spend my whole weekend there when it's happening. This fair was the bestttt ever. I spent it with my two friends Danielle and Shilpa and it was super great 'cause it was the first time Shilpa, Dani and I were getting together. Dani and I met Shilpa at a track meet and since then we've just always stayed in touch.


The weather was perfect, the rides (or should I say ride) was fun. The pickles: delicious! And the memories unforgettable. I had so many fun moments with them from painting faces, to taking pictures with strange lizards named Dave and their pirate owners, and I was so sad when I had to leave but so happy I got to spend it with them. I LOVE YOU GUYS!



The rest of October has been pretty great so far too. Everyday I get to throw on comfy sweats and snuggle on the couch with a cup of tea. Mmmmm... tea has become a daily thing nowadays. I'm not a coffee person and this weather gives me too many excuses for my caffiene of choice. Doesn't it just feel amazing to curl up with a good book or movie, rain pounding on the roof, and a hot cup of tea in your hand?


Song stuck in my head today: "Hey Julie" by Fountains of Wayne (my current favorite!)


Keep on keepin' on,


Madison

yeah.

;& why do i still torture myself with you?

The mind is a funny thing. You try to drive something out of it and like a boomeraang it just keeps coming back. You keep yourself busy, knowing something's not good for you. But once you're alone it come crawling up out of the dark, daring you. Daring you to do it. But you can't. You want to so bad but what happens if it falls apart. You move on, it says. But you can't. You can't pursue it and watch it die. You can't walk away from it and let it sit there laughing in your face. If you do it, it has to work. It must. You'll be lost, much more lost than before if it doesn't. But if something new comes along, something better, are you able to let go? Will you spend the rest of your nights tossing and turning about your new feelings? Or will the old ones keep creeping up on you? What if the old ones were never meant to be? What if they were never ever good for you. But why would something keep popping into your head?

Song stuck in my head today: ♥ ♪

Keep on keepin' on,

Madison

Dare to Dream

Dreams are funny little things. Not the ones you have in your sleep. Well, those are very funny, but I'm talking about the dreams YOU create. The things you hope and wish for in life, even though the odds are against you. But, not a specific dream. One that's just a random slurr of events, not something that you can acheive solely by yourself. Like that somewhat stupid dream that you have about having your first kiss on a ferris wheel, the one that you know will never happen but you still think about at night. Maybe you dream about having crazy adventures on a road trip, but you're not quite sure what those adventures would be but the thought of it keeps you from focusing in class. Those dreams that make no sense, that you don't know how they'd happen or what they would entail but you know you want them.

Not to be Debbie downer, but they probably won't happen. You're going to have your first kiss in some sleazy game of spin the bottle and you might go on that road trip and be completely adventure-less. These dreams of yours, can't be achieved sometimes by just your doing. I mean, you could grab a random guy and kiss him at your street fair, and you could do something stupid while on the road that makes you run from the law. But you know that's not what you want. You want something, seamless, perfect, and completely "random" something that will happen that's not obvious to others but you smile to yourself knowing you've hoped something like this would happen for a while. But who knows! Things have a wierd way of falling into place. The first time you spin the bottle, it could land on the boy you've always had a soft spot for since middle school and the kiss could be totally amazing! The road trip you go on could be peaceful and touching, and not what you expected but you'll never forget it.

I ask myself sometimes if these dreams are necessary. If they don't happen then what's their purpose? Are they there to mock us, and taunt us, because the didn't happen? Or are they there to keep us going, to help us strive for something greater?

That's what life does. You throw something out there, and most likely, you'll get something different in return. But you got to run with what life gives you, give it a try and hopefully you can make it just as great as what you asked for in the first place. Because not all dreams can be a reality and not all reality is a dream.

I wonder if I'll still be sitting in my closest dreaming my little dreams, or if any of them will come true.

Song stuck in my head today: Read my other post and find out!

Keep on keepin' on,

Madison

Stuck In The Middle.

My town has a lot of people in it. So we have two high schools- one for the north, and one for the south. Simple, yes? Eh, maybe. You see, these two sides of the town for two very short years, come together to go to middle school. This gives us the amazing opportunity to meet new friends and people, but also teaches us how to go our seperate ways, which is good to learn, but hard to go through. I live in the center. Not north, nor south. Just the middle. There's a middle of everything and that's where I live! People always say "No, no, no, you're either north or south you can't be middle! There's no middle!." But there is, and I'm stuck in it. North and south are very different, there's obviously a line drawn between them since everyone's convinced I don't like in the middle. But they mesh together fine because like all humans, they're the same in many ways. But since I live in the middle, I have to be zoned for one school district, and one only. Since the middle's so tiny, I'm either in the north or south. Unfortunately (to a certain degree), I'm zoned for south.

Not that the south is horrible, it just has a bunch of annoying qualities that I won't go into detail of. But the thing is, I'm a BLOCK away from the cut off line for north school zoning, and every since I was little I wanted to go to the north's high school. My dad went there, my cousins and aunts went there, I just think it'd be so cool to be walking down the same halls they did- plus I have a lot of friends who are going there. Since I'm a block away from the north school's it's a hassle to go down south for school, why should I drive for seven minutes when I can walk there in five?! Well anyways, during my middle school years I was given a chance to go to school with my north friends and I've always dreaded leaving them this year for high school. Well, as you know, I did. And it didn't feel much different.

Until this week.

On Wednesday we had a soccer game at there school (yes, our rivals, big whoop) and I saw all my friends from middle school, and all these familair faces, and stepping on their field looking up at their school felt like one big slap in the face. I swear, I nearly cried. Actually seeing the people I'm no longer with, at their school (what I've always considered my school) made me want to crumple up my soccer jersey and play for the other team. You never realize how much you wanted something, or missed someone until you physical see them or something that reminds you of them, or hear their voice. I've thought about all my good memories with my friends in middle school, and have talked to them online, but nothing gets me more sad than walking down to their school and seeing them all there smiling without me!

I like my high school, but I'm wondering now how things would be better or worse if I went to the school I've always wanted to go to.

Song stuck in my head today: "Stairway to Heaven" by Led Zeppelin

Keep on keepin' on,

Madison